Video Shiur: Return Again keep up the Teshuva | Hitbodedut and Repentance | Likutey Moharan 35
The road to teshuva is not always easy. But somehow, the harder it gets, the more you want to make it yours. The only way to attain God’s glory is through repentance. And the true sign of a person who has returned to God is the ability to hear himself insulted and remain silent. He endures even the most murderous abuse with patience, thereby reducing the blood in the left side of his heart (seat of the animal soul) and annihilating his evil inclination. Such a person is worthy of a share in God’s glory.
When a person wants to purify himself and return to God, they tell him “Wait!” (Yoma 38b-39a) . It is true that he should hurry to free his soul and escape the darkness. But he should not allow himself to become discouraged and dejected if he sees that he is far from true prayer and other holy devotions. Waiting patiently is a necessary part of the process. In the end he will be worthy of making amends completely and everything will be rectified.
Teshuvah essentially depends on humility. One must make oneself into nothing, like a wasteland over which people trample: one must pay no attention whatsoever to opposition or abuse from others. One should train oneself to be silent and hear oneself insulted without answering back. Such a person is worthy of the name “wise” and will attain perfect Teshuvah, the “Crown” and summit of the Sefirot. This is the way to true and enduring glory – the glory of God. (Likutey Moharan I, 6)